When I began my weight loss journey I never really knew where it would take me. I figured since I feel crappy every single day maybe if I lose the weight I will feel better. That is how all of this started. Obviously I still have a long way to go but I have come to love this journey. I’m in it for the long haul now. One of the most amazing perks of losing a significant amount of weight is rediscovering your love of so many activities and experiences.
Weight loss perks and benefits
When I was younger and at a healthier weight I remember my life being so full of things I enjoyed. One thing I adored doing was blasting my favorite songs while dancing and singing. I will be the first to admit I’m a terrible dancer and singer but that didn’t matter because it was so much fun for me. Unfortunately the heavier I became the less I enjoyed that activity. Dancing became painful because being on my feet hurt. I would end up practically gasping for air and drenched in sweat after 10 minutes. After losing 50 pounds I’m finally starting to enjoy dancing around like an idiot again. What is lost can abso-freaking-lutely be found again.
Another amazing activity I found my love for again is shopping and all things fashion. After putting on almost 100 pounds I was hot and uncomfortable all the time and clothes just added to the discomfort. I began to lose my love of fashion and started spending more and more time wearing ratty old t-shirts and big comfy sweat pants. Which of course resulted in me spending more and more time hiding out in my room watching Netflix for way longer than I care to admit. It’s a vicious cycle isn’t it? After losing about 40 pounds I decided to go shopping to get some new clothes. It became such a profound experience and I will never forget the feeling looking in the mirror in that dressing room after slipping into a cute little dress that actually fit. I felt so healthy and happy! It wasn’t just the fact that the dress fit but that shopping for clothes went surprisingly very smoothly. I realized it was because I felt better and was not distracted by all the annoying pain and discomfort of being overweight. Wandering through the store and I found myself mentally planning outfits and envisioning myself strutting around confidently in them. I found a little piece of myself that had been missing for so long.
The final activity I wanted to talk about is going out to eat with friends and family. I have to admit I’m totally food crazy! I love all the greasy, cheesy, fatty foods! At my heaviest going out to eat was a regular habit for me but it was never completely satisfying because I would end up feeling so self-conscious as I was scraping all the last little bits of food off my plate. I didn’t understand why I can finish my whole meal and still be hungry while everyone else ate only half of theirs. The fact is that I just had to face the reality that I had been using food as an emotional crutch for far too long. I was used to eating huge portions because that’s what made me feel good in the moment so anytime I was around food without even thinking I would just eat everything in sight. We all have things that make us sad, stressed out and anxious. When those feeling invade your daily life and take over most your hours of the day I think it is human nature to try to find a way to escape it. So that’s what I did. After facing some of my issues with overindulging in food and losing 50 pounds I am happy to report the grass really is greener on the other side. Now going out to eat with family and friends truly is a treat. I’m not so focused on how much food I can shovel down without anyone noticing and more connected to the people or person I am with.
I want to encouraging anyone and everyone to not give up on the things that make you happy. Gaining weight can sometime make it difficult to enjoy some of your favorite activities but please know you’re worth it and deserve to have and live a life full of the experiences and people you love. I never wanted my weight to hold me back. You shouldn’t either! I know we all gain weight for different reasons. For some of us it is emotional eating, prescriptions, depression, anxiety, PTSD, grief, digestive/health issues or maybe you just love food so much that you overindulge in food as much as you possibly can. The list goes on and on. Everyone has their own unique life journey but I truly believe no matter what your story is we are all in this together. I don’t know if this blog will reach anyone but if you’re reading this please know I would love to hear your particular story. Whatever that may be. I feel the more you surround yourself with people who support you in this journey the more beautiful your transformation becomes because not only are you transforming on the outside, you begin to transform on the inside too. As always thank you so much for reading!
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